to wonder (land)

Some of you may be wondering why all of my blog posts are filled with such deep, soul filled self reflection. You may be asking yourself if this is how I spend all of my life, sorting through such heavy emotion laden mind quandaries.









I assure you, I do not.








Instead, my "visible life" is much to the contrary. I spend a lot of time dancing. And even more time laughing. And story telling too. This chick loves a good story.

I plant veggies and take photos and walk around the city. I drive out into the country and stare at some of the most amazing natural creations I have ever had the pleasure of absorbing into me. I listen to hip hop every day, and I gain energy from it. I paint my toenails banana yellow or hot pink. I sip on raspberry apple juice.



I hang out daily with this really cool cat, also known as RMH. And we talk about our days and laugh together, call each other really weird names and generally just have a super fun time.






I connect weekly with my close girlfriends and chat about everything under the sun. We delve into social and political problems we feel passionate about and then relate them to our own personal experiences. We talk about work and life and our partners. We laugh a lot too. As I've mentioned, I spend a lot of time doing that.




I dance in my house, sometimes with RMH and sometimes alone. I dance with my baby sister (anywhere we are really). And we tells jokes to one another and laugh at things only we think are funny. And I text and email my siblings I don't get to see as much (because of school and distance and new babies!) And I send my love for them into the universe daily.

I lunch with my Ma and Gma. I learn a lot about my ancestry and have the opportunity to open my soul in ways I am not able with anyone but family. I talk about how I'm interested in learning how to sew/knit, in order to make cool pieces like vintage purses and neck scowls. I ask about new recipes I can try at home. And we discuss the importance of financial/intellectual independence as women. We also dissect religion and rejoice in our spirituality.



I research whole food diets (diet as in a lifestyle change, not a weight loss technique) and local protests. I engage in activism with my comrades nationwide. I read newspaper articles and blog posts related to women's issues, current events, sustainable food sources, worker's rights, and every other little thing I latch onto with excitement and passion.

I thrift store shop like a crazy woman. And I am a crazy woman. I scour for deals and delight in the bargain find. I venture to consignment shops, vintage stores, and architectural salvage yards. I have many o' partners in crime in this venture as well, might I add.










I dream about you. I wonder how your day to day is progressing. I send good vibes to my inner circle and the outer universe. I pray to love. I eat a whole lot of amazing foods. I sit in silence and feel blessed. I even draw a little too.










So when you come to my little place in the world and read about my inner most thoughts and soul searching endeavors. Know that I am human (a human with an old soul). And I do what I do to find balance. And sometimes that balance can be found in a really juicy apple or a really, really loud laugh. Sometimes I find that balance in your hug or the word that you are doing well, truly well. Sometimes I find balance in sitting on my roof deck with a book or in the small compliment I just gave a stranger.

My world is your world just with different colors.